Today, I wanted to encourage someone who finds themself in between a rock and a hard place. A part of you wants to believe the words God has spoken, but the other part of you is ready to give up. You may feel that you've done all you can do and that God doesn't hear you. But let this encouragement serve as a reminder, that you are so close to what God has for you.
The other day I decided to go down memory lane. I opened my journal from late 2020. In this journal comprised most of my journey towards Houston. From the couch, to the airBNB's and the things in between. I landed on a page from 11/16/2020 where I discussed how tired I was. Let me share an excerpt of this letter below with you:
" Dear God, I am coming humbly before you. IDK how much longer I can be strong, I am tired. My heart hurts and more importantly I just feel so forgotten about. I don't know what can be done but I swear a change is needed. I just don't feel great right now and I know that feeling like this is normal and okay. I just want to shut myself off from the world and disappear. I have had enough, I can't smile anymore. I just want to feel that overwhelming peace but I honestly can't help but feel like nothing is going to get better. How can I focus when I am in a disruptive place not only in life, but internally as well. I am tired of patching up wounds and open to allowing myself to feel all of this..."
The letter continues on with me pouring my heart out to God and then beginning to encourage myself. Would y'all believe me if I told y'all two weeks later I received a five thousand dollar grant? A grant that God told me I'd use to get to Houston? Had I known then what was coming, I would've praised God a little harder!
But isn't that the beauty of serving God? We never truly know how close we are to that promise He has for us. Sometimes those feelings we have are indications that our breakthrough is near.
So today, let this encourage you that you are so close... Don't give up now!
“Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful.”
Hebrews 10:23 NKJV
Reflection Question(s): We invite you to discuss below.
What are the emotions you are facing currently? What are the scriptures you're using to keep you rooted in your faith?