Throughout my life, I struggled with “confidence.” The funniest thing to me was that everyone around me thought the exact opposite. Growing up, if you asked people what they loved about me, confidence would be amongst the first few things they’d mention. It would always baffle me because how could people see something in me, that I never saw? But as I drew closer to God, He began to do the same thing.
What do I mean? As you draw closer to God, He will show you things about yourself that you won’t believe. It’s not because He’s a liar, but more because those lies you tell yourself? You begin to believe them. So when God says something great about you, you immediately “return to sender.” It reminds me specifically of the children of Israel. God mentioned their greatness and how He gave them the land of promise, yet when seeing what they stood up against, they simply replied, “We were like grasshoppers.” My question is how could the Israelites know what they looked like to the giants? The giants probably never even noticed they were there!
A lot of us are the same exact way. Circumstances might have changed, but how we see ourselves are often far below the mark that God sets. How you see yourself speaks largely to the size of your mind. The Israelites only saw themselves as the size of grasshoppers because that’s the level of thinking they were at. Their minds weren’t big enough to receive the promise. For you, you may find yourself in this same place. Where you’ve begun to lessen yourself based off what you think others think. Unless you can read minds, you’re truly incapacitating your ability to walk into the land of promise.
“There we saw the giants (the descendants of Anak came from the giants); and we were like grasshoppers in our own sight, and so we were in their sight.””
Numbers 13:33 NKJV
Reflection Question(s): We invite you to discuss below.
How do you see yourself? Are you a big guy or a small fry?