I exchanged it…
One day, I couldn't seem to get my mind to stop racing. As I attempted to fall asleep all I could think of were the "what ifs" in my situation. Knowing I had no way to fix it, I reverted back to my old way of doing things; just worry my way through. While doing this, peace left and despair walked right through my souls' door.
Out of nowhere I heard "Trust in the Lord with ALL your heart and acknowledge Him in ALL your ways and lean not on your own understanding." (Emphasis added by me) I knew it wasn't me because I wasn't in the mood for reciting scriptures. But reciting this scripture out loud revealed something to me. Number one, that I must trust God. Number two, that I can't lean on my own understanding. Had all the stress I encountered simply been because I was leaning on my own understanding? Because I didn't trust God?
Now of course I trust God, but did I trust Him in this situation? Honest answer? I didn't. So I first had to remind myself that, unlike man, I could trust God no matter what my circumstances looked liked. Secondly, I had to exchange my understanding for God's. The second was the difficult thing to do because it required me to give something up that kept me comfort. But that comfort kept me in a prison, so was it truly comfort? It was just another way for me to exercise control in a situation I had absolutely no control over. I had to let go of what I thought I knew, in exchange for what God said it is.
If you find yourself in this very situation right now, ask yourself the questions below. Reply honestly. Then exchange your understanding for God's. I promise you'll feel freer this way.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths.”
Proverbs 3:5-6 NKJV
Reflection Question(s): We invite you to discuss below.
Do you trust God in this situation? Are you stuck in a prison because you've chosen your understanding over God's? How will you decide to trust God in this situation? What does that look like for you? How are you going to exchange your understanding for God's?